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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Icy

I faced temptation today that was almost too much to bear.

I finally flopped into bed last night at 1:45am. At 2:15, El Guille came into our room asking to sleep with us. Other Half took him back to his bedroom. At 2:30, El Guille came in again. I got up this time. We sang some songs, we held hands, he fell asleep, and I crawled back to bed.

At 4:30am the baby woke up screaming. I don't know how long he'd been crying since I was so deep into sleeping it could have been 20 minutes. I moved and felt El Guille at the foot of our bed anyway (the previous ministrations had been for naught.)

The baby and I decided to use El Guille's twin since its owner was away. I awoke at 6:00am, put the baby back in his crib, and tried to convince my protesting back to carry me to my bed. I nudged El Guille out of MY spot, hoping that it wouldn't awaken him for the day. I feel asleep on a sliver of bed. At 8:00, El Guille woke up—he slept in! Other Half got up and I got to sleep for another 45 minutes.

Argh.

I wrenched myself from bed with a desire, a craving, and a plan forming in my mind.

I wanted a Coke.

Yes, NieNie, a Coke—an icy, shocking Coke that would keep me awake.

Yes, I am a bad girl.

Wednesday is my meetings day and I knew that I wouldn’t be able to keep my eyelids from betraying me without chemical intervention. I tried to remember the half life of caffeine. I figured that if I drank half a Coke by 11am, I would be safe to nurse again by 5 or 6pm. I was saved from my dastardly plan by a friendly reminder that our meetings were canceled today.

It made me remember when El Guille turned 13 months and I fell off the wagon, hard. I drank one icy Diet Lime Coke on that equally frosty morning and THUD. I had one everyday that week.

What a binge! It was positively Roman!

So, no, Nie, I didn’t have a Coke.


I wanted one.


But I didn’t have one.


27 comments:

Azúcar said...

So I wrote this post this morning before I saw that CW had posted a similarly themed story. Her story is much more poignant and sweet.

Jennifer B. said...

I applaud your self-control. Hope you get better rest tonight.

compulsive writer said...

No--I love your post. I had a few people comment about how worried they were about their kids growing up and I couldn't stress enough about how much harder I think nights like yours are.

I still remember that feeling you have (you get a bit of a headache from lack of sleep and your stomach starts to do that "I-think-I'm-going-to-be-sick-for-being-so-tired" thing. And you think about your day ahead and you know deep down in your very core there is no way you are going to make it through the next day.

The amazing this is, somehow you do. And then you do it all over again.

As for the Coke, I am amazed at your restraint. You are a better woman than I am. Way to go!

Hope last night was a better night!

Cindy said...

Mmmmmmm...I love the Coca Cola. I am trying not to drink it anymore. I won't have dental insurance for a while.

~j. said...

cw, that feeling is called, "I'm so tired that I'm going to THROW UP!!!"

Tori :) said...

I had a coke for you. Or really a diet dr. pepper.

Azúcar said...

Tori, thank you. Please, drink all the Dr. Pepper in the world for me.

~J - ...

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I was waiting for you to say that.

Cindy- Cokes and french dips, dark brown food is tasty.

Cdub - it WAS a better night. An early morning, but a better night.

jennifer b - self control wins the battle--but not the war (yet.)

RC Cola! said...

I'm glad I'm not the only one who gets the, "I'm so tired I'm going to puke feeling!" Sometimes I tell people I'm nauseous due to lack of sleep and they think I'm crazy!!! My entire body, including my digestive system, needs its rest!

It's posts like these that make me realize I need to live it up while I can -good thing I slept in until 11:00 am this morning. I think I'm on the right track.

lisa v. clark said...

Oh have a coke, for crying out loud!!! It's not like it's Vodka or liquid Anthrax or anything!

I'm sincerely sorry about your lack of sleep. It's the worst thing ever--being so loopy (and emotional, for me) the whole day. Lets find our simple pleasures where we can. If that's in the form of a tall, cool one, so be it.

Azúcar said...

LVC, I love you. There are no medals.

b. said...

I'm with LVC. The kid'll be alright, I swear.
As long as you stop short of "I'm-so-tired-I'm-going-to-act-like-paula-abdul-or-john-stamos" I'll still respect you.
Jet-lag my fanny.

more caffeine, please said...

I have my caffinated beverages every day. And Toad's an amazing sleeper. My doc even said it would take almost 4 or 5 of them to affect him. So sauce it up already, he'll be fine!!!

sue-donym said...

Put down the crack pipe and have a sip. It'l make you look younger, and all the kids are doing it.

Rynell said...

I have also craved a little caffeinated pick-me-up this week. Alas, I haven't had one.

Ummmm. Icy. Sounds good.

PS. I tagged you. I hope you don't hate that.

Emily said...

I like LVC for her lowering-the-bar-and-being-awesome factor. We should all be so cool.

It is really difficult for me to empathize/commiserate with a Coca-Cola -- or any carbonated beverage -- addiction. Soda's just not my thing. Sugar, I'm all over that.

c jane said...

Oh Honey I have shared a Coke with Nie plenty of times in our lives and we both know that she is ALWAYS breast feeding. Am I disclosing info that I shouldn't?

But cheers to you my dearest.

Azúcar said...

It's not really an addiction, I rarely drink the stuff. It's not even the sugar, I don't like most sodas and I prefer Diet Coke. I drink socially.

However, when I am dragging my butt out of bed and think I'm so tired I'm going to throw up, all that bitter caffeine syrup sounds like a piece of heaven.

I wish me and the babes weren't so sensitive to caffeine. I try to never drink a caffeinated beverage after 7pm because it will keep me up far into the night. I even have to be careful with chocolate close to bedtime. It's just the way our bodies are built. High pain threshold and extreme sensitivity to substances--you'd think they'd be mutually exclusive but I'm living proof.

And ceej, thanks for the dirt on Nie. Next you'll tell me that she shares her food!

Sarah said...

There is nothing in this world more delicious than vanilla coke. Gahhh....

My two year old finished off the last few ounces of her dad's soda during the first our of the 12 hour drive to UT a few weeks ago. We didn't even think about the fact that it was Mountain Dew. It was her first caffinee ever and she talked non-stop for the entire 12 hour drive to Utah. We couldn't figure out why she wouldn't nap until we were only an hour away and I remembered, "wait a minute - we gave her Mountain Dew..." Yeah, we're morons.

Engineer: martha corinna; Conductor: j. bradley; Restless Riders: norah corinna, lucia louise, j. abram; On the Caboose: tequila the foxdog said...

I'm sensitive to caffeine too. I have desired it every morning for the past 4 months(my baby hasn't been sleeping)though.
My experiences with caffeine haven't been so uneventful. I usually don't drink caffeinated soda b/c it makes me wired and an insomniac. When I was pregnant with my son, I had horrible migraines. My midwife told my to take a Tylenol with a can of Coke. Soon after drinking the can of Coke my pulse began to race, I starting sweating and shaking. I thought I was having a heart attack. All from one can of Coke, maybe this can of Coke is why my baby doesn't sleep.
Anyway, I can sympathize.

Geo said...

Some of these comments deserve medals!

"positively Roman"—I'm keeping that for my own.

I got addicted to something wierd with caffeine without realizing it—Peanut Toffee Buzz CLIF Bars. Green tea extract, the new Mormon no-no. I'll be in the bishop's office soon. I guess the Buzz part should have tipped me off.

compulsive writer said...

LOVE green tea extract.

My favorite buzz (but only in half-doses--I'm sensitive, too) zipfizz.

b. said...

zipfizz is good. A bunch of us at work started innocently enjoying a new crystal light....which counts as water, in my book....called Wild Strawberry (energy). The (energy) part is not blaringly clear on the box. It has almost 3 times the caffeine as diet pepsi per serving as well as the herbal energy blends. We've been very awake and very productive.

citymama1 said...

Oh, to have your discipline! There is nothing like a nice cold diet coke on ice. mmmm.....

pflower10 said...

well, except if you plop some nice, juicy slices of lime into it.

I used to be a social drinker but now it has drifted into my daily life.....but that's only because I'm on a strict diet and you can have all the diet soda or non caloric drinks you want!! I don't know ANYONE else that can give me that kind of freedom.

Annette said...

I am so there with you, I have been off the sauce (dc is my drink of choice) for about 10 months now (about 6 months of my pregnancy and now 4 months of post). Somedays are tougher than others, that picture almost sends me to McD's for a large one!

Emily said...

Do you know Annette?! I know Annette!

I want to ask Sarah: can you make the poor picked-on dude in your avatar fight back? Please? I can't stand it!

nie nie said...

if you are going to have a drink, have a pepsi for the love...