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Monday, February 18, 2008

Thanks For the Tissues, Sue


One of the worst parts about being sick is that you want everyone to know how sick you are, but that no one, not even your mom, cares.

Oh, we all do a great job of saying, “How are you feeling?” but the truth is that no one really wants to hear it. And by ‘it’ I mean “My hacking cough is ripping my alveoli out and replacing them with tar.”

“I’m sick,” suffices for 95% of your interactions (memo to self.)

Who can blame other people, honestly, it’s not like they are magical healers that can wave their hands in front of your abdomen, correct your chi, and banish all that sick. Instead, sick people just make us all feel uncomfortable. I don’t know how people ever become doctors or nurses because listening to Ed tell me about his gout is about the last thing I ever want to do with my life.

That’s only part of the reason that I struggle with being sick. The other part about being sick is the feeling, entirely self-imposed mind you, that my character is somehow deficient because I’ve allowed myself to get sick and allowed myself to not become instantly better. “Get it together, self!” I say to…myself.

“Yes, you had the death flu, the same flu that killed millions of people all over the world after WWI. However, really, you should just get over it.” Instead, my body just collapses in coughing fits. What is that? Who’s in charge around here anyway?

The flu. The flu is in charge.

14 comments:

Lindy said...

i heard that the flu vaccine they gave out this year doesn't even match 40% of the strains going around! i really, really hope that you feel better soon. and, really, your character is not deficient (at least not in my eyes).

Rynell said...

The flu is absolutely horrid. It's awful that it hangs on soooo long, like an (unwelcome) distant relative. And you can't ditch it until it decides to leave you.

I'm very, very sorry.

c jane said...

I try and try but I cannot imagine you sick. It's just not . . . YOU.

Kacy said...

I'm worried that you are going crazy--questioning your character? I understand, though. When I had chicken pox in high school I made myself sleep on the floor until I got better, thinking that depriving myself of my bed would somehow force me to get better. It was crazy, and so are you. Take Nyquil and indulge yourself. You'll be better and wiping everyone else's nose soon. (And that will be it's own kind of "suck.")

Jill said...

I feel your pain. I've had the death flu since last Tuesday. It kicked my butt...and then kicked it again for good measure. Add the fact that I'm 7 week pregnant and I was certain that I was just lying on death's doorstep. It's a week later and I'm just now feeling about 95%, still not 100%. Good luck with getting better. This is not a character issue. You were just b-slapped by the death flu. That's just violence that you can't control.

AzĂșcar said...

Logically, I understand that it's not my fault, really, but somehow, there are vestiges of me that feel like I should just pull it together.

Because cjane is right: me? Sick? That's just strange.

i i eee said...

I'm sad you're still sick!

But I won't try to tell you to take Vitamin C -unlike the 20 people who told me to take vitamin C when I was sick. LIKE I HAD NEVER HEARD THAT BEFORE.

fijiangirl said...

Hope you are feeling better soon. The flu SUCKS!!!! and the more you wish it away the longer it seems to stay so my thought is enjoy having a legitimate excuse for things

sue-donym said...

You are very welcome. Because nothing says "I care" more than a jumbo box of Kleenex.

You're new haircut should help the healing process. You are rockin' that girl.

more caffeine, please said...

New haircut. Um, hello? Don't we share everything here? You're holding out on a photo. Get off your sick butt and post one, will you?

Seriously, sad you're sick. Moms (especially working moms) shouldn't get sick. Are your kids sick? That should be fun...

Lucky Red Hen said...

Not that I'm blaming you, perse/pursay/persay, but I got the flu the day after I read about YOU getting the flu. We're going on 2 weeks now and I'd like to bear my testimony of the truthfulness of Mucinex (the coughing one of the 2). The Cosco version is about $39/100 capsules and you take 1-2 twice a day (not to exceed 4 in 24 hours). That's helped break up the garbage in my lungs so my coughs are more effective, I can breath better and it's controlled *most* of my night coughing that'd wake me every time. I'm not a big drug taker, but when I find something that helps I definitely do. I'll send you some if you wanna try them ;o)

April said...

ha! Just this morning I suddenly thought of that Austin Powers quote: "Allow myself to introduce...myself."

Make sure to go to the doc if it starts getting worse. I had to rush my sister to the ER Sunday night because she'd gotten so dehydrated from all the puking and the pooping. (Yeah, I said it. It's not like she'll ever read this comment.)

Emily said...

I know you didn't ask for advice, but my advice is, have you had a course of antibiotics yet? Maybe you're anti-antibiotics, but I finished a Z-Pack this weekend and, "oh my heavens!" do I feel better -- definitely still healing, but so much better. If an infection has set in to your lungs (which it very likely has), it will really help clear it up. Just some advice that you didn't ask for...from a fellow hacker.

Likely said...

heard last night that this year is the worst flu epidemic ever. are you glad to be part of it? we were too a part of it, along with nearly everyone I know. seriously.