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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Dispatches From the Bread Line

This is a hard post to write.

For the second time in a year I find myself without a regular work/job type thing. Sure, the “economy is bad” and “times are tough” but those are for other people, not me and mine, right? I shouldn’t be under that delusion anymore, but it’s still hard to accept. We’re trying to figure out ways to cover the bills and it’s getting tight. I know deep down that everything happens for a reason, and that things fall apart so others can fall together; it’s just a little heart-stopping in the mean time.

I think the last time this happened, back in March of this year, I was in a far worse place. Not only had I lost my job of three years, but my mother had been diagnosed with a virulent cancer (that happened on the same day, in the same hour, by the way.) I was a mess. I’m not a mess this time (at least not yet.) My mom is doing well. I’m grateful that I was able to find work relatively quickly and that I got to work for a great company for the past six months. I felt impressed when I considered taking the offer that I should take it, but that that job would be short term. Since most of my employment life has been measured in years, I was a little shocked when it turned into months, although I probably shouldn’t have been.

I’m definitely trying to fight the feeling of fear with the feeling of gratitude. I know we’ve been placed in our home for a reason, although it’s been a struggle to fit into our neighborhood. We have wonderful friends and family who buttress us. My husband does important work, work that really does change the world, I wish with all my heart it was enough to support us. I’ve heard that there are women out there that demand that their husbands change careers. I couldn’t do that. He loves what he does, and more importantly, he’s amazing at it: he has the highest student test scores in the district.

While we figure out what happens next, I could use a prayer, a candle, or a Budda-belly rub, whatever it is you do.

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35 comments:

Nemesis said...

Oh man. I am so sorry. I will go say a prayer and light a candle and see if I can track down a Buddha.

TheOneTrueSue said...

See, and here I thought you must've already found something. I'm so sorry you're still going through this. I will shake the trees and keep my eyes and ears open.

Maybe this is some new, very perverse pregnancy rite of passage - lose job, lose house, gain baby. I will pray very very hard that the first thing is short-lived and that the second doesn't happen.

Much love to you...

cabesh said...

Prayers coming from here....and I'll keep my eyes and ears open.

Natasha said...

Very sorry, Carina. I will certainly say a prayer for you and your family.

(Job loss and mom cancer in the same hour? WHAAAAT?! Glad she's doing okay.)

Azúcar said...

Right, Natasha? It was kind of ludicrous. St. Patrick's Day, won't ever forget that (March is particularly cruel in my experience.)

Ken and Patty said...

My sister is Editor in Chief for a magazine in Pittsburgh. I'll see if they need some contract writing done for afar.

Anonymous said...

prayers, lighting candles, and i'll even wave my magic wand. yep, i have one, and i do wave it for special people.

ClistyB said...

gah! Sorry to hear this.
..........
can't think of anything humorous to say right now.

Megling said...

oh man! We too suffer from the "my husband loves his job and is doing amazing things for the world at it but darned if he doesn't barely make a living wage!" dilemma! Oh ministry work!
I pray for you a marvelous opportunity, one that is suited to your needs and just a little bit surprising...because what's God good for if not a little bit of a lovely curve ball now and then.
In the mean time, enjoy being able to nap! ;)

Morgan said...

You don't know me. I don't know you. This feels a little awkward, like I am walking into a private conversation and everyone stops talking, but just wanted to chime in that I am hoping for the best for you.

I loved the line, "things fall apart so people can fall together." Clever and so true.

Azúcar said...

Thanks, Morgan! I didn't originate it, but it fits the bill. And this isn't private! We're on the Interwebs! My domain is your domain! Hope you stick around for the happier stuff.

Lee Gientke said...

Carina -

Sorry to hear about this. Call me... I have a client who needs content written for his site. It's mortgage stuff.

Stu The Wannabe Guru said...

Well crap! And people thought it was bad for me when I lost my job on my birthday (except for me... my birthday is pretty much meaningless to me). What a mess, eh? Well, if it makes you feel any better I haven't been employed since OS let me go back in April 2009. Yet I've managed to scrounge together enough freelance work and website income to have never missed a single bill during that time. Chin up and forge forward. Things have a way of working out the way that you want (or, "the way you need," I guess is more appropriate). You're well qualified. I'm sure things will go well for you! Best wishes!

kirk said...

Boss,

My heart goes out to you at this time. I want to thank YOU for saving me those few years ago when I was on the chopping block at ah-ha . I wish I could have done the same for you this time around. So much of where I am in my life and career (even this bowl of Campbell's Chicken Noodle soup which I am eating) links back to that job and I time I was able to spend w/you and the rest of the gang.

As tough as this is to swallow, I know you'll make the best of it as you always do. My prayers are with you and yours.

Kirk

Jewels said...

Lady lady, I'm so sorry. I am so impressed with your attitude and I love that you are so supportive of your husband's work. We had some friends where the wife insisted that her husband get out of the family business and do something else to make more money. He did it, was miserable, they didn't make that much more than before and she ended up divorcing him anyway.

We are struggling, too. Hang in there! I will keep you in our prayers...and we should probably lunch. That always makes me feel better.

Kalli Ko said...

it will all work out, that's been my mantra for the past 2 years and you know what, it has so far

If you get desperate you can always work for my company, you know who they are. It's a little mindless and the pay is low but hey, money is money, right?

Rocketgirl said...

Holy cannelloni. I applaud you on having your head in such a nice place, despite the junk. My husband gets laid off every time I get pregnant. It's only twice so far, but it leaves an impression. I also applaud you on having such awesome skillz that make you employed every now and then. I have no actual salaried skillz and it irks me, especially when the husband gets the laid off.

(Also, yay for an awesome husband who loves what he does! And boo to Utah which grossly underpays their educators! My dad got his PhD in education in Utah in the 70s, and the starting salary for a teacher there was below the poverty level. Grrrrr.)

(also also, my word verification is "scaring." I'm not making that up.)

Tyla said...

So sorry to hear this. I'll be sure to remember you and your family in my prayers, Azucar.

vanessa said...

I wonder if BlogHer needs some work done. I have noticed quite a few people work for them, just a thought. I will be sure to keep my ear open for things and pass them along to you.

fijiangirl said...

I am so sorry.... If anything I can say, all I can say is "this too shall pass". Our prayers are with you.

lisa said...

I hope you get a job offer for every time you made me laugh...hundreds will roll in before the week is through!

(Also, prayers, candles, and yes, I have a Buddha, which I will rub if you think it will work for a couple of Mormons...)

Amy said...

Lame. I assume you're not interested in relocating to the bay area, otherwise I'd work my connections. Sending you good vibes.

Barb @ getupandplay said...

Added to the prayer roster. Check!

Spreading the word about an awesome writer. Check!

the emily said...

Oh suck. suck suck suck suck suck suck. I'm so sorry. March was that way for me too--lost job, mom got cancer (but not in the same answer). Mom is now cancer-free and I have a job, so things will look up for you too...because it has to. You're cuter and more talented than I am.

kami @ nobiggie.net said...

Lame! I WILL keep and ear and eye out for you.

Laura said...

I got laid off from my job a few months ago myself. Marketing too, and at one point I did do SEO writing.

We're soulmates.

Candice said...

I hope something comes your way soon! I have no doubt that it will. Best wishes!

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for a while, and I can definitely see your talents through it. I have some connections that may pan out, can you send me your contact information and resume? Tons of blessings and good vibes!

marissafratto@gmail.com

ray-ray says said...

My husband is a teacher as well. And I wouldn't dream of demanding that he change jobs just so we could have more to show for it in the bank, or in the driveway, or in the fridge.

Here's hoping things fall together quickly.

Rynell said...

I'm so sorry. I'll see if any of my contacts have work (and also pray).

Lindsey Johnson said...

Ouch. So sorry, my friend. Try getting set up via LDS employment services for the professional groups. Fred's going to one tonight in Provo. (I think you have to have a recommendation through the employment services to go, or else I'd say just show up sometime.)

We've been waiting for a miracle job now since April. :( I'll send prayers your way for sure. I feel for you. It's not easy.

I'm gonna e-mail you.

Dr. SWILUA said...

My (college grad) sister ended up getting a fairly descent job through Paradise Staffing. What she learned in her whole unemployment debacle is that in bad economic times, lots of employers want to "try out the goods" before they buy them. Within her working three jobs, she had two full-time offers. And she was working in the mean time.

Good luck! I'll pray for you!

Linda said...

Hoping for the best for you and your family and your new pregnancy! Your writing is fantastic and hopefully you won't be without income for long. And yes, it sucks that your wonderful husband skills aren't recognized by a great salary.

Melody said...

Hang on . . . something's coming. Candle. Done. Prayer. Done. God bless.

Melanie Jacobson said...

Since you closed your comments on the previous post, I just wanted to let you know that I've been out of the blog loop this month and don't live in Utah so hadn't heard of The Lower Lights. But after watching the video, we just downloaded the album and LOVE it. It's making our Sunday happier. And I see from your last post that things are better than they were when you posted this one, so I'm glad to see that.

And again, super happy with The Lower Lights find. Hoo-rah!